I have been telling myself for weeks now that I can't wait to have you out, not only because I weigh tonnes and have not experience a comfortable position on sitting, standing or lying down. It is more of after so many months of being so intimately connected with you by that little umbilical cord; I can't wait to see you face to face, holding you in my arms and telling you how much I love you. I can't wait to hear that little voice of yours, playing with your little fingers and toes. And just giving all the love I can ever give... only to you!
June 23rd, 2001
It was 4am and I am still tossing and turning, trying to find a perfect position with my more than gigantic size stomach for sleeping. Not only I can't find a good position; you were moving around in me more than the usual. Almost like you are trying to kick yourself out of me! I remembered being so irritated and shouted to you though my tummy "YOU EITHER COME OUT NOW, OR YOU BETTER GO TO SLEEP!" The next thing I knew, my water broke and that was your way of saying "I AM READY TO COME OUT NOW!"
I did not experience any pain till 1pm (after the inducing) and you were out to great me and the world @ around 4pm. You looked so tiny, you are more beautiful than I can ever imagine. I heard your first cry and I knew immediately you are going to grow up to be a strong, beautiful and wonderful person.
June 23rd, 2010
Today, it's your 9th Birthday. I want you to know, even though I am not there with you physically, to hold you in my arms; to look you in the eyes; to tell you that I love you in person. Please know that my mind and my heart have never left you even for 1 second. You are ALWAYS, ALWAYS loved. Our physical distance is never making me love you less, but ALWAYS, ALWAYS more!
I am sorry I can't be with you 2nd year in a roll to celebrate your birthday. But, I am sure you will still enjoy your special day to the utmost with your friends and family in NZ.
I love you, please never doubt that. I would never ever stop loving you, no matter what happen. I am you mummy and you are my baby. And that is a fact, nothing is going to ever change that. I am here for you, ALWAYS. I will lover you, ALWAYS.
I pray on this special day of yours, the Lord will continue to pour His Spirit upon you, guiding, leading, teaching and preserving you for His Kingdom. I pray that His blessing will be abundant and overflowing for the rest of your days. I pray you will ALWAYS remember the first love you have for Him and that your passion will grow in HIM.
Happy 9th Birthday my BELOVED, my KEISHA
